Messy mind @!#$%?&

Assalamualaikum,,

0ke ..tu a part of my life during my extend ..now terlintas kat hati nak luahkan perasaan ploppp..takde sape sape pon tau sebab aku malas nak bising sangat,,lagipon tak penting mane pon pasal diri aku nie kann..hoho.Oke,,sape sape yg dah kenal aku mesti tau aku nie dah banyak kali dpermainkan oleh kaum jantan/lelaki/man/boy/siswa/adam ..aku dah P E N A T, L E T I H, S A K I T ..memang aku dah tak sangat layan lelaki sekarang nie,,yg mintak no phone or nak couple pon memang aku malas nak layan sangattt..aku reply text diorang pon kekadang je sampaikan some of them marahkan aku sebab tak reply .huh .mampos la kannn..lelaki semua sama,,aku tau tak semua laki macam nie but aku tak jumpa lagi laki yg betol betol gentleman baik soleh setia responsible and loving forever .kekadang i do felt lonely but then when i look at my friends and their couple,,i do felt their happiness and i am happy for their side .aku dah gerun sesangat ,,takot dah nak bagi perasaan aku pada sape.takot dikecewakan lagi,,takot dipermainkan lagi .aku taknak nangis lagi dahhh .sebab tu aku jauhkan diri aku,,and sekarand jantan tak guna tu cari aku balek and aku nak bagitau yg aku dah takde perasaan pada dia.our pic dulu ponn aku dah delete.aku dah dapat lupakan dia sepenuhnya and hati aku bahagia dengan orang lain !! Alhamdulillah..

But after all,,my adopted brother since i was in form 5 long long time a go and now im 20th..!! had long time before he did tell me and for now he text me back and ask me to meet him . he said that he really wanna meet me for once and even if after met me once ,,and if i do not wanna met him any more so he pleased whatever my decison is..i just felt pity towards him because he did contact me for years and didn't treated him well..so i decided to meet him at Dklasik cafe.i couldnt ate in front of him because im ashamed and i just drank and gave an excuse that im already full.then after that he took me going to the airport because incidentally on that day was the day of our first time country's football player came back for a trophy parade(Piala FA) of their victory with Sime Darby. Well,for sure a guy do love the football game right.so he asked me to wait for a while on the street in his car before he sent me back.he want to see the football players with their trophy.so,,hmmm..oke la.he treated me well ,had a lot of talk and talked to me nicely.the way he talked to me i could say that i found a new guy again.he always text me.im not sure yet about this feeling.but i had told my ma and abah bout him.i told everything etc.his work,family,salary,hometown,name..hahahaha..its funny right.im still 20th and its too early to talk about this.but abah said he want to checked him up.OMG ..haha.we're still friend and im not sure what do i felt towards him.but sometimes lately i did missed him because we both did text each other every night and if he doesnt text me,,i felt like something's wrong.Plus,,he also did told me that he missed me and wanna meet me again.

huh,,my mind is in mess !@#$%^&

New Faces .. :))

0ke..dah lame ak tak on blogger..banyak menghabiskan diri dengan facebook je,,maklumlah sekarang sementara cuti sem nie daripada tak buat pape kerja so better ak busy kann diri dengan buat CHOCOLATE HANDMADE..heee..kann kannnn..(hangguk jela kepale).ak buat bisnes choc tu secara online and that is why ak selalu on fb .Alhamdulillah rezeki bertambah,,ramai yang buat tempahan sampai ak susah sikit nak jumpa bff ak sendiri (Zatiey,Mcya,Ghah,Murni,Dayah,Mila,Pija,Ruby) .Plus,lately dalam 2 month nie kan orang kawen(so agak banyak sikit tempahan). bukan ak tanak jumpa and lepak lepak dengan diorang,,nak sangatttttt ! tapi susah nak spend time sikit . baru baru nie pon kejap je pon boleh jumpa and tu pon sebab Dayah sakit sikit so ak decided pegi melawat dia kejap .lega sikit boleh lepak dengan diorang kejap . kejap pon kejap lahhhh..adeyhhhh ! fter this pon my bff plan nak buat bbq but ak tak tahulahh boleh join or tak and hopefully bolehh .Aminnnn ;)


                          Another story is ak rasa sedikit bahagia sebab dah boleh lupakan dia hampir sepenuhnya                                                               dan harap tak lama lagi selamanya ! In the mean time,,dia pulak muncul lagi dalam hidop ak .huh . When i could and able to live nor remember him anymore,,he did appear again .texting me,calling me,said that i'm the best gurl that he ever had(bangang kann),then risaukan kesihatan ak bagai laaa..plus,ak saje nak buat dia risau and nak tahu sejaoh mane he still worried about me so i lied to him saying that i'm in hospital and ak dah nak mati .hahaha .mampos la kannnn .but memang he did show me that he cares and still worrying about me .dia pon marah ak jugak sebab cakap benda yang bukan bukan and siap bagi ak warning if ak cakap macam tu lagi dia nak lempang muka ak .oiii oiiiiii .supo lah mung tu tok laki ak,gewe ak lagi .kuba ehhhh ..ak bukan milik mung lagi dah..ak oyap dah ko dio jangan risaukan pasal ak lagi dah .semua tuh boleh bantu ak ingatkan semua kenangan dengan dia balik .bodo punya jate ! time ak betul betul sayang mung buat maen maen then bilo sapa tiba masa ak dah lupakan mung and tohok jaoh perasae tu,,mung plop mari cari ak .ak bukan perempuan murahan .now i realised that u're not a good guy and not deserved well for me instead ..Alhamdulillah Ya Allah..pelacur yang layak utk kau .


P/s : I am able to live happily,greatly without you by my side .Plus ramai yang nak tackle ak right now but then ak je yg tak layan(tahu kau jealouskan ak) .it is a fact .i'm not kidding. So i could show u very well that every seconds i am smiling and i am in happiness !!!